wow. havent even looked at this thing in like six months. alot has changed in six months. i'm still me, the stubborn, lazy, outgoing fun loving me. but life has a funny way of changing you. six months might not seem like a long time to some, but when you're young, and living on your own, and constantly coming into contact with new people and experiences six months changes you. six months can mature you: mold you into a totally different person with a new outlook on everything, and now as i cap off my third semester here at texas a&m i look back on the year and a half ive spent here and wonder about the person i am today, and the person i was in august of 2004.
i have my regrets, but i learn from them. what good are regrets if you never learn from them? they are there for a reason.
ive made many new friends, lost one(RIP RTW), and kept alot of old ones. i have lost touch with a few and it is sad, but i've learned that it's just part of growing up: part of life. i still consider most of my old friends as friends, and i few i just don't consider.
ive made a few good close friends, and for them i am grateful. they help me through my bad times and share in the joy of my good times. all good people with warm hearts.
ive broken hearts and have had my heart broken. ive taken the bad with the good and kept on rollin. for those i've hurt i am sorry: regrets, a teacher of life's lessons. as for the one who broke mine, just know that i wish only the best for you and i know that you'll be ok. i always believed in you because i saw the best of you, even if you didn't show it  . you are a beautiful person with a warm heart, and that's how i'll remember you.
ive come to know the meaning of family, after almost losing touch with mine. i now know that they do want whats best for me and they want to see me succeed in life, i was just too self centered to see it. i love my mother very much and she loves me more than i know. for her and all of my family i am grateful.
as i close out the year, i have a few goals and wishes for the new one to come.
i want to be closer to my dad. that man has given so much for me and put up with so much, i don't know what to say. he is the hardest working individual i know. my dad has taught me so much and i don't think that he knows it. i want him to know just what he means to me. i want him to know i look up to him and that i wish i could be the man he is someday.
i want to do better in school. i've come to realize that college is no joke. it's tough. i need to dedicate more time to studying and books and less time to parties and part time jobs that won't mean anything when i graduate.
my last major goal for the new year is i want to be closer to God. college life is chaotically hectic. with so much going on its easy to find an excuse to cut the big guy out of your life, and you're not even doing it intentionally...you just sort of forget, and there's really no excuse for that. i want to be reminded every day of God's presence in my life.
so all in all, i've had an awesome year and a half here in college station. ive learned that life's a roller coaster and you better be strapped in. ups and downs, good times and bad, fun classes and boring ones...keep rollin through. ~brandon | 
...ever get that feeling where it feels like there's this glow radiating from your chest? its a pretty good feeling. thats been me for a couple weeks now and this glow is turning into an inferno. i got it bad. real bad. and i dont mind at all.